so very tired and my poor dh day 2

I was up most of the night with Dustin, the poor guy is still very sick and has not passed his stone yet. He spent most of the night in the front bathroom and I camped out, outside the door of the bathroom in the hallway. I brought the top blanket to our bed and two pillows and a book and just layed there for hours spending time with him because I knew he would not be able to sleep through the pain. I hope he can get through this fast, the last ones never took this long to pass :( He has been sleeping most of the day which is good since he was up most of the night. I think with everything that has happened the past two days with him, I probably have only had 8 hours asleep in two days so I am so very tired today. I am thinking about taking a nap now while Aidan is down so I can finish my kits for ebay later tonight. With Dustin missing work this week we will need the extra money.

I also have been working on a couple cards for the cards magazine call due tomorrow. I would love to be published with them again! They truly are an amazing magazine/book. There are so many awesome idea for cards in their books.

I am having some issues with my email and peamail, for some reason I am receiving my peamail a couple days after they are sent out to me and they end up everytime in my junk mail folder even though I have gone in to change them to be sent to my inbox. So strange.

Okay well I better get to my nap lol so I can work later. I am so in a scrapbooking mood right now but sadly I have to "work" first before I can play lol (ebay=work) I am so happy I got a layout done two days ago though :)

Sorry for the boring post today lol, I am blaming it on my half asleep brain ;)

Nikki

My poor DH, I finally scrapbooked

I finally scrapbooked a layout for the first time in like two months. I was reading Amy Howes blog and saw this challenge there that her and Robyn made at two peas and thought it would be perfect for me to do. You were suppose to create a layout using only three items, Cardstock, buttons and HS letters. The layout above was my finished project for this challenge, it was so much fun to do. I think I will have to try more of these challenges.

Dustin has been sick again for a couple days now. Last night when he went to bed he kept saying his cyst (in an area I will not be posting about, very personal but common in men to get them in this spot) he went to bed so upset, I felt so bad for him and asked if we could just got to the ER. He did not want to. At around 1:30 am he woke up and said he had to go to the ER. I said I would drive him. So we got in the car and drove two buildings over to the local hospital, when I dropped him off at the ER I looked over at him and he was dry heaving, he looked so sick and so wet with sweat all over his face and neck, I started to freak out right there, I just wanted to be with him and not leave his side, I did not want to leave him but with it being so late and the boys sleeping it would not be right to wake them to wait at the hospital, I sat here and waited for him to call for about 30 minutes then tried his cell phone to see what was going on, I could not get to sleep at all until I knew things were okay or that he sounds better. no answer, I waited a few more minutes, it felt like forever! Then I tried two more times, nothing So I called the ER. I spoke to a man who put me on hold for like a minute and then I heard Dustin's voice It was so heartbreaking, he is in so much pain right now because of this lump, we were both so scared that now this cyst has turned into something worse. He said they had him on an IV with pain meds but he was so hurt, said they were not working at all he said they were going to do another ultrasound and see how much more of the lump has grown. We were both so scared they were going to say "cancer". I found out later that the IV they gave him did not make it into his vein and that is why the meds did not work for him until they started over in the other arm (this always happens everytime to the both of us, we have such bad luck with IV's and hospitals)

I spoke to Dustin two more times after that call, I could hardly understand him, he was in and out of the coversation with me so groggy. He said they took some more test and were coming in and he does not remember much because of him passing out off and on. I asked him to call me back if he heard anything else. I layed down and finally got a little sleep, he called me around 7:40am to come get him. When I got there I waited a few minutes and then they took me back to see him, he was curled up in a chair in his room he slept in all night, he looked so hurt. He told me that it was not the cyst causing all this trouble but that his third kidney stone had dropped (he has had two in the last two years and we knew there were 4 all together, they seem to drop once every year so after this one passes there will only be one left). Although I know kidney stones are horrible (i have never had one but I have watched him go through it now three times)but I was happy it was not the cyst, They said that the kidney stone dropped fast and that is why he felt it in his, well um area were the cyst is (the cyst is in an area that if it was cancerous they might have to remove something to get it out and that can less our chances for fertility if we wanted more kids) This whole thing was just so scary for the both of us! I was so very sad that I could not be by his side through it all! He is still in alot of pain and says the cyst area hurts him. The dr's said that it is nothing to worry about, but once we get back to CA in a couple months we will be making an appointment to have it checked out again and maybe removed to ease our minds.

Okay well it has been a long couple days so I am going to go try and sneak in a nap here. TTYAS

Nikki

Had to stop blogging for a bit

I am sorry I have not posted again in awhile, I have had to take a break to get this in order in my homelife. I had something happen here that changed things, at first it was pretty bad but the last two weeks things have gotten better. For those of you who are close to me you know what I am talking about, for those of you who know me just by my blog, it is a bit to personal to share on here but I will tell you we are doing alot better.

The boys are doing good, I have been working on ABC's and writing with Austin, he is getting really good at writing. Aidan knows his ABC's really well and can say the sounds that go with them Thanks to our Leap pad fridge phonics.

D to me is slowly being laid off of work :( they just keep cutting his hours, he is now down to only 4 hours a night 5 days a week and 8 hours on sat. It is kinda scary but at the same time it is okay, when we get to CA he will have his new job, his mom said to not worry about this job to much.

I have been working super hard on EBAY stuff the last week, it is after all my job and ectra income coming into the house. I had three kits sell today and two are still up at ebay one with a bid :) Kristie and I were super happy :) I am working on more kits now. I spent last weekend cleaning my scraproom and now it looks great I added an extra shelf at my table so now I have more room and I enjoy being in there working. I also need to take sometime for me to scrapbook and get my Chatterbox MIM contest entry done. LOL I wonder if I can just drop it off at the CBX offices ;) lol. This is thee biggest goal I want to finish right now! Chatterbox means so much to me.

Hmmmm more scrapbooking news is I will be getting my new Arctic Frog stuff any day now, the stuff that I ordered from LM and my goodies for having a layout Published in their 2006 catalog, I can't wait to play :) I also placed a small order at Linnecards for some CBX goodies (like if I don't have enough ;)) this stuff will be great for more kits I am working on.

It has been nice spending so much time with my family the last two weeks, I think we all needed this! To get things good again and sort out our life more, communicate, which I think is our biggest problem.

Okay I am rambling now so I better get back to finishing up my laundry folding and my ebay kits. TTYAS I promise not to stay away as long again and update more. ooooooo I just remembered I better get my "summer" layouts turned into ST right now too..... TTYS

whoa!

Sorry again that it has been a while since I last updated, it's been a very busy couple of weeks. Not only have I been working harder getting Ebay kits up for the extra money, but I have been heavy duty cleaning and starting to pack. We are getting excited now!

I have also been doing so good at working out, it is making me feel so much better everyday and I am now at the point where it is getting addicting, damn did I miss this feeling and I have not felt it since before I was PG with Austin. I have always been active, I am a two time gold medalist in Kickboxing, I love to walk/jug/run, and LOVE Karate. And I am a gym addict :) I have also been drinking more water then soda YAY :)

I should be getting my LRS DT kit anyday now and can't wait, I have some good ideas for this kit that I can't wait to get started on. I am also working on more Moments Defined goodies :) There are a couple new goodies that we got to see that were shown at CHA and they look awesome! I can not wait to play :) I want to get a few more cards done for Cards magazine also.

Okay well I need to go finish my latest kit for EBAY and then get things moved around in out room and a few more boxes packed :) TTYAS

Nikki

Current Calls Ticker

Awesome new feature from Scrapsubmit, this ticker lists all the new current calls (it updates it's self when there is a new call) all you do is click on the call and it will take you to the submitting page! AWESOME!

I did not make it

We got up early today, which means I have only had about 4 hours of sleep since I went to bed this early morning. I was just to nervous. After I finish this blog entry I am going to bed. Right now I am eating a yummy sonic oreo blast. I think I deserve it :) and I will just go to the gym (oooo yeah the best thing for me there huh? eat some yummy icecream treat and then go to sleep, oprah would be proud of me ;) and my diet (NOT).

Well I did not make the scrapworks team. I honestly think that maybe I am not making these teams because my style is just to much, it's got to much going on, but you know what it is just that, MY STYLE and the way I scrapbook, I am not going to change it, I am proud of it, my friends and family love it, it's me. Now that another of these contests, is under my belt I am getting use to the way they are run and work, it's a good experience, I am learning from all this. It's teaching me for what is to come in my future right? (Chatterbox maybe? :0) I would just die if that ever happened! I am going to try to get my "something" done for that major contest (not a DT contest) I was speaking of in my last post, because it is using something I truly love and work with most often I think I can do good with it (lord knows I have enough of it to last a lifetime lol), at least I will try my best to. I really want to win this or at least place in it.

Okay I need to go lay down, when I get back up I will come and post more. TTYAL

Nikki

I can't sleep :(

So here I sit 1:40 in the morning and I can't sleep, why you might ask? My nerves, I am so nervous about the Scrapworks DT call and that they will be announcing the 2006 Design team tomorrow. Since I share the same Timezone it will be no later than 6pm MST. After seeing all the Scrapworks entries in the Peas Gallery I feel so nervous. Do I even have a chance? Think about all the talented people who tried out who are not from Peas? And all the Talented gals at LM who tried out. I have to admit, this is also one of my favorite times, the not knowing, the feeling of will I be? I know the feeling all to well of what the next day will bring, good or bad, the day you find out if you made it or not, I know what it feels like to make it and I know what it feels like not to. Although I want tomorrow (well actually it is tomorrow now huh lol) to come and to know if my name is on the site (I wonder if they will have finalists?), I also am scared to know, scared of that rejected feeling...

I have started my HOF stuff now and have a great buddy, I am still doubting myself about entering, one thing is for sure I want to get the 10 layouts done in the next two weeks, maybe not to send them in but to have at least tried. There is one HUGE (in my eyes) contest I want to try this year (no it is not for a DT) It is something that would mean so much to me, and I have an idea of what I want it to be (themewise), I think it is going to be great, I have no doubt in my mind about it, it is something I truly love! I am not going to talk to much about the contest because I do not want to jinx myself ;)

Okay I just finished my jug of water so I think I should probably go try and lay down again and get some sleep, what if by some gift from God, I get this DT spot at Scrapworks, I have to be awake to get the call right? lol Good night all and to those who read my blog and have tried out for this also, Good Luck! :0)

Nikki

Yuck, cleaning today

Well I have spent the week working on assignments and EBAY stuff so today will be spent cleaning, ewwwwwwwww, and boy do the boys have a nasty mess in their room for me ~Sigh~
I want to also move the furniture around in my room, I am thinking about taking one of my Scrap shelves down from the wall and folding up the 8ft scrap table and just moving my dresser back in it's place, I have enough room on my 4ft table to work and I can add one of the shelves and 3 drawer tubs to it for the extra storage. The room is just to small for both a bedroom and a scraproom and lol my scraproom has taken it over. So it's time to get some of my room back lol plus I want the light in there again, One of my huge dressers is sitting in front of the window now so not much light comes in. I like the light in the room, makes me feel more creative.

I am on pins and needle about My scrapworks entry, TOMORROW is the day the new DT is posted on the scrapworks website. I really want this, as well as many others, I want to work for a company who's products I love to use and the creative part comes easy for me. I have been sitting here wondering who will make it, what styles, etc. The whole choosing a DT must be so hard for companies, so many people try out and you have to narrow it down, you want to pick the best for your team but you also feel bad about those you can't take on.

Okay I better get to work on the cleaning and Lunch for everyone. TTYS

Nikki

WooHoo I did it :0)

Okay before I get to bed I just wanted to say wooohooo I changed my blog template :) and GEEZZZ did it take forever lol. Thanks so much Jen for your help on finding the template for me, I changed a few things from the Original, and I still have a couple questions that I will ask you in the morning ;0) Thanks girlie for helping me!

Nikki

YAY I finished

I am so happy! I was able to finish my Scrapworks Design team entry and get it off to them. I really like the way my layouts and card turned out, but not so much with the project, I mean I like it I just think it may be a bit to simple and after seeing all the uploaded projects others did, My project was stomped on in comparison. But again even if I do not make the team I am SUPER happy with my about me page I got done. It was fun to make! I stayed up late (3am lol) to work on it last week. I really liked the business line colors and thought the one sheet of Chatterbox I used with it worked so well. Cool thing about Scrapwork paper is when you flip the patterned side over you get a solid cardstock with a color that matches the pattern on the other side, in this layout it is the dark blue you see throughout it. Amways here are my layouts (the two page layout is an older one I did but I did use some Scrapworks stuff on both pages) the one page about me is a new one and so is the card.

and here is the card



I am trying to finish up a baby layout for the Scrapbook Trends Baby Ideabook, and I am working on two ebay kits. I also plan to start my HOF entries tonight. I will be a scrapping fool this week :0)

On a Side note I was reading Ambers blog (remember Amber, Jen? I was telling you about her digital designs and Citrus Blossoms and wishing the designs were made into paper to? (lol although I like digital scrapping I stink at it lol, I have only ever done one maybe I will post it here to show you lol, it stinks I tell yea lol), well guess what girl? LOOOOOOOOOOOK...

Heather P (this is the link to Heathers blog and Ambers Sneak Peak) and A2Z have Amber as their new designer. YAY :) now no more trying to figure out how to print out Ambers designs to use on a layout LOL. I can't wait! This is exciting stuff! Amber also has a couple sneak peaks on her blog as while. Go check them out ladies, they are awesome!

Okay I better get back to work. Talk to you all soon.

Oh before I go I have to tell you what my two year old "Aidan" Said to me, I was sitting here working a couple nights ago, it was about 10pm and he was still up but tired. He kept talking about taking a bath and I said no that it was bed time. So I see him get up off the couch and start heading down the hallway. I say no no no, the monster is guarding the hallway and says he wants you in bed, (before you say I am a bad parent for telling my son there are monsters let me explain, lol his favorite movie is Monsters Inc by Dinsey, so he has this thing for monsters.) A couple minutes go by and he is still sitting here with me, I get up to go get some paper for my printer and my son reminds me that the monster is guarding the hallway...

Aidan- "Mommy there is a monster in hallway"

me- "oh yeah I forgot"

Aidan- "mommy there is a monster in hallway and he is going to eat your brains"

me- (thought in my head- hmmmm D must have told him something about monsters eating brains, figures lol) "ooooo really, now that is not nice of him is it?"

Aidan- " mommy monster's in hallway and I will punch his eye"

Me- "okay Aidan, how about mommy just tells the monster he can leave on break for 5 minutes so mommy can get her paper for her work"

I yell down the hall that it is break time to the monster and turn on the hall light, Aidan is right behind me

Aidan- "Mommy Monsters not on break he is in the potty"

(My older son most have left the light on in the bathroom and closed the door lol, anywho it worked though, he did not want to take a bath after that because the monster was on guard of the hallway, he went to bed shortly after. We also have a monster who guards the kitchen at night (lol some nights Aidan like to go in there and if the fridge is not locked (my older son lol eye roll) then he will get in there a few times.

Okay I am off now, Hope you all have a good day!

Nikki

I was tagged

I was tagged by Jlyne :0)

Four jobs you have had in your life:
1. I work at a dental office, doing x-rays, clean up and office filing/cleaning I was 16 my first job :)

2. Fresh Choice- I loved this place, it was fun and time flew by, I got to work with my best friend Myra (we have had a few jobs together lol hmmm that reminds me of our job at TCBY too if it was not busy we would bring videos to watch in the back room while doing homework lol, awww good times, me, Myra, yogurt toppings (mmmmmm candy lol) and Scarface on the boob tube), We had fun at Fresh choice to, lots of yummy foods to eat ;) lol, dancing while closing to awesome music (lol I will never forget the time Myra almost broke her back while we were leaving one night after closing (this was one of our jobs we had back in HS) that song by I think the cardagians "Love me Love say that you love me" was on and we were walking out of the restaurant and goofing around dancing funny, next thing you know Myra was on her back and I swear I was going to pee my pants it was so funny! This is also where I met one of my serious BF's, lol went to the Sadies dance with him (lol I have pictures YIKES lol) I also have pictures of us working at Fresh choice lol

3. Little Nellies restaurant (NM), I LOVED this job as a waitress, it was fun, fast money lol, I remember spending so much of my tip money on Clothes and Music CD's (reason I have so MANY cd's today). Closing time was fun as well, we would all turn on the Juke box and sing dance (some drank lol).

4. Sonic Restaurant: Yes, I was a carhop also and did do the skates too LOL, This job was a LOVE HATE job, some days it was fun (summer) some not so much (winter and snow) another job I had while in (NM), okay I hope this does not make me sound bad but the worst thing about this job was me always being hit on, I got so annoyed of it, male co-workers and eww one female LOL and the annoying guys in the cars. In NM Sonic was the "HOT SPOT" Froday and Saturday nights, so they were always busy and it was "cruising night" so all the cars would do this circle thing up and down the street for hours on those nights lol.

Four movies you would watch over and over:
1. Scarface :0) love this movie
2. Pulp Fiction
3. How to lose a guy in 10 days
4. Sweet home alabama (Oh an Jlyne I also love Seven and own the special edition :)

Four places you have lived:
1. San Jose, Ca
2. Las Crusas, NM
3. Nampa, ID
4.

Four TV shows you love to watch:
1. Gilmore Girls
2. Project Runway
3. LOST
4. Anything on MTV lol, Laguna beach, meet the barkers, Next, RW, RR'S, all the shows

Four places you have been on vacation:
1. Reno
2. AZ
3. DisneyLand
4. San Fran (HoneyMoon with D) (lol and I have been a ton on just daily visits lol)

Four websites I visit daily:
1. Lifetime Moments
2. Two Peas PUB
3. Many Blogs I love
4. Email

Four of my favorite foods:
1. Avacado Turkey Sandwich
2. My homemade Chicken Tacos
3. Pepsi
4. Milk Shakes lol (I know bad but I LOVE them!)

Four places I would rather be right now:
1. California
2. Beach
3. Hawaii
4. A Nice hot bubble bath

Four bloggers I am tagging:
1. Jen
2. Kristie
3. Kara
4. Vern

Okay I need to head back to my scrap area and start working on my EBAY kits again, TTYAS :)

Nikki

Yawn...

I am up late finishing up a layout. I had Dustin take another picture of me yesterday so I could make this new layout for a Call. Nothing much happened today, I pretty much just had a lazy day, which I was needed after this long weekend lol. I did work on some EBAY stuff. I have to start selling a few things weekly on EBAY again for the extra cash for the family. It was kinda fun pulling everything out again and working. I plan to have some stuff up tomorrow. Okay sorry to cut this one a little short but I am super sleepy. Night all

Nikki

BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD!!!

I am soooooooooooooo BAD! Why? well I just ate a whole box of these...



Yep a whole box of Milano MINT cookies and it was soooooooooo good! In fact I am sure if there was another bag I would eat that too lol ;) I got a lot done this weekend I finished a lot of projects for Design teams I am on. I finished my layouts and projects for LRS, and like my end results. I was challenged by a thread at two peas, it was about people who only use one enlarged picture per layout and who always get published using them and how they are always in the magazines now. Well I fall into to that subject. I LOVE to scrap single 5x7 pictures. The most important thing to me about my scrapbooking is my journaling. Heck last night I was laying in front of the TV in our living room and my husband left his VANS shoe box on the entertainment center, I was looking at the pattern of the many "vans" word across the box and I then really badly wanted to take a picture of my husbands shoes and the box and scrap it. Why? Because that is him and there is a story behind it. My husband is a VANS shoe nut lol, this guy has TONS of them and has been "collecting" them LOL since he was 14. I want my boys to know this about their dad! I want them to see the style of vans their dad loves, maybe one day they will love them as much as D and enjoy seeing their dads style. I also realized that I want to make a "book of me" about my husband for them, for us! I have one I started for me and love it. I have my love of Yankee candles layout in it, lol heck I should probably do one on my love for thin mints and mint milanos lol, after all it is a part of me right!

Any way we all have stories to tell, that we want others to know, irregardless (lol I used a Trent Mean girls word ;) "love for all my fellow PITNB readers) of weather we use one picture of 10 we are scrapping things that are meaningful to us! Well I decided to make a few layouts with more then one picture, no I am not quitting my single photo layouts, I just decided to take the challenge and use more of my pictures on a layout, and I JOURNALed on everyone. Out of 4 layouts only 1 had one photo layout. Here they are if want to see :0)

and here is one of my projects I made with the kit...



I also made this beautiful (lol well I think so hee hee) mini matchbook album of the boys for Moments Defined CHA winter booth. And a Fathers Day card all with the Awakenings line. I will post those on my blog tomorrow, I am to tired and lazy to open photoshop and resize for the blog lol (blush) Okay I better get to bed, Night all I am going to go dream about Milano :0)

Nikki

I am still here, kinda...

Well it's been a busy couple of weeks, the holidays, the finishing up of the charity auction, we went to California for Christmas (and found out a couple of good things for our families future while we were there), plans for our move, etc. The boys were REALLY sick all through Christmas, I posted about what "fun" I had with that at LM, it lasted past Christmas, I got a couple days of a break and now they are both sick with colds. I have been super busy with Scrapbooking this past week. I had my CHA Winter items to work on and finish for MD and then my LRS DT kit came a few days ago so I have been busy with that, sick kids, cleaning the house all day (eyeroll) and demanding husband, I have not had much time for the computer or anything else. I usually have a not so busy month, (one dt I get to work with every other month) and the other is really easy, just scrapbooking with their awesome supplies. But this month it all came at me all at once, it's so funny how that happens. I have been super good spirited about it all, getting my work done and things done here at home, not letting anything get me down. But then something always seems to happen to me when things are going good that takes that confidence away, and now I feel like shit, I am beginning to think that I should never feel happy about anything because then I don't have to feel this crappy feeling either. Wishing I could crawl back into bed now, but I can't, While I was in my 5 minutes shower that I got to sneek in while I thought the boys were good watching their cartoons, all heck broke loose, so now I have a couple big chores ahead of me. Just wanted to get on and update those of you who were sweet to email me and see how I was doing. I'm okay, I'm alive just super busy this month. Things will be normal again next month.

Warning, lots of pics, and blogage lol

Okay it is late and I have a horrible headache/ear infection so I may have typos lol, hard to type with one eye half shut lol ;) Lots going on the past two days. Lets see two days ago we took the boys to the mall in town to see santa but he would not be there until 4pm, well it was only noon so we thought we would drive into town to see santa at the other mall 25 miles away. Well we get there walk all the way across the mall and OOPS would'nt you know, santa was sick and not there so we got a coupon lol. So we looked around, stopped in a couple stores to do some "window shopping" (great now that song by 50 cent is in my head lol) any ways so I stopped in Bath and Body work to spray myself with some yummy scent, well I mixed a couple things and moved on, later that night I kept smelling this awesome smell. Well the next day we went back to the in town mall to see santa at 4PM, The boys were so cute! When santa asked Austin what he wanted for Christmas he said "a new big boy bed" it was so cute! We are going to see if we can get him a twin bed (with the help from the Christmas money D's grandparents sent us yesterday, they sent us money to take care of all our gifts, so we thought we could do this for austin) Then we had pictures taken for MIL and the inlaws (it was only $12 for a 5x7 and 4 wallets) and they let me take one with my camera...



After we went window shopping again, well I stopped back in Bath and Body works to of course do the spray thing again LOL ;) well I went straight to the two bottles I sprayed myself with the day before, together the smell of both of them together was AMAZING! I loved it! Here they are :) ...



Cherry Blosom and Warm vanilla Sugar, and this shimmer mist is awesome! This is so going on my Christmas list :D or something I will treat myself to when and if I start doing EBAY again.

They also have one of my all time favorite scents there (I am a huge bath and body freak lol and have a nice little collection I started a few years back of all the lotions and sprays and this is one of my favorites)



Coconut lime (it has a hint of vanilla), if you have not smelt or tried this then you HAVE too! You will love it! and the lotions are so good! They keep your skin so soft and they smell so good! Oh and right now ladies they are having a sale on all the antibacterial soap buy 3 for $10 (I did not get anything but this was a sale they were running until the last days of Dec)

Anyways we had a great time yesterday. I also did a small little photo shoot with the boys yesterday that went a little wacky, I did manage to get a couple good pictures after about 150 LOL, if one boy was not moving then the other was. It was so hard! Here are some of those pictures...











I had to bribe the boys with candy LOL and at one point I had to place the candy tin on my head and on the camera just to get them both to look at me LOL. Okay I need to get to bed, Jay Leno and Johnny Knoxville are over (love johnny) so nightie night :)

Nikki

What to do, What to do?

I woke up early today, I did my one mile walk away the pounds DVD and then had D watch the boys while I went outside for a walk. It was nice.
I have spent most of the day being lazy. I did take the boys to walmart to get milk and a $.97 tape measurer. Well I was in the craft section I saw this Making Memories embellishment kits, they are a $30 value for only $9.99, they had all kinds of things in them, including one of my most favorite things by MM, simply stated rubon alphas YAY. LOL Sadly we have no extra money so hopefully there will be at least one left there after Christmas. I also looked to see if they had those lunch boxes I saw a thread about in the PUB, but did not see any at walmart.

Speaking of scrapbooking, I finished my 4 layouts using the LRS Dec kit. I was so happy with them and LOVE the one I did of D "The one that I love", I posted them in two different galleries but they did not get much love at all, maybe they are not as good as I thought? I am thinking I need to work on my scrap style, I need to make my layouts more eye catching. Maybe I need a mentor or muse? someone who can help me find a better style, help me improve by telling me what I am missing, tell me all the new trends and latest styles etc.

Here are those 4 layouts...

So I was reading one of my most favorite blogs " Pink is the new blog " evah :) and LOOK What Trent has...



You can get them at www.randyandmoss.com and they are only $20 BUT they are only on sale until 12/16/05 then they go away forever. I soooooooooooooo WISH we had the money to get me that black one, I want it so bad! Maybe I can tell D I want it for Christmas ;) lol

Speaking of Christmas I need to get my hiney in gear and get something made for MIL, my folks, FIL and his wife and D's grandparents. I make them all something handmade each year. I just have no clue what to do this year. Anyone have any ideas? I need to get whatever it is done by Friday lol so I can get it to them on time.

Okay well I need to get the boys down for bed and maybe watch a little tv before bed. Night all

Nikki

Horrible day

Everything is just so crappy right now! Things going on here at home, I feel so worthless, like I don't matter, my feelings, I feel taken advantage of!

Things going on with a friend I thought was a friend, she got to know me, I thought I got to know her, turns out I was being used and she quickly moved on to the next "best thing" as she likes to call it! And now I am being ignored!

I can't seem to get anything done today, I have tried but I get no help from D who has been home all day.

My work stinks, I stink at it today, could be because I am not in the mood for anything now that my whole day has just fallen apart, funny how one bad thing happens and everything starts to fall apart.

If you make it a point to make friends and get to know people PLEASE watch yourself, there are people out there that are just using you! They do not care about you as the person you are, just what you CAN do for them at that moment in time, then they throw your friendship away like it does not matter! I met someone a few months back, she came to me telling me I inspired her and she loved my work, we started talking alot, about work,scrapping,our families, She would ask me for advice on scrapbooking and of course I would give it to her,, I thought we were friends, but then she just stopped talking to me, out of the blue, I have seen her move on to others, pretty much doing the same thing she did to me! WATCH out on who you trust and let into your life! I know from personal experience! Hurts like HELL when this happens!
Nuff said!

:(

Under the Christmas Tree

This was my two year old today. I saw him playing under the tree, I thought nothing of it and continued to read. About 20 minutes later I heard my 4 year old yelling in his room, so I got up to go tell him to play a little lower with his voice. When I can back into the living room I found my son sleeping under the tree like the picture above. Boy does it bring back childhood memories!

as long back as I can remember my sister and I LOVED to camp out under the tree, the lights, the smell. I am glad to see my boys picked up on it too :)

Well I pulled my stuff out to scrapbook today, had it all set up out here in the living room on the coffee table (instead of back in my room where I have all my scrap stuff set up) so I could be close to the boys and D. D was home this afternoon (working late) so he watched the boys while I started a layout. After he left to work the boys were impossible! Fighting, throwing toys, hitting, jumping, bouncing you name it, they did it! I got my work out in today for sure! the minute my butt hit the floor to work, that same minute I was up to get them away from eachother. right now it is 20 minutes until their bedtime and they are wired more then ever. I even had to put my scrap stuff away for now (dt stuff) and turn out all the lights (not the christmas tree) and put on boomerang (flintstones on right now) to try and calm them, where are they? One is screaming and yelling because he can't pass a game on his PS2 and the others is in and out of his room with his HUGE fire engine. Not to much longer before D is back home YYYYYAYYYYY :) Then maybe I can take a nice hot bubble bath with a book and then come back out and work on this layout more. (crossing fingers) It's a layout of my youngest in his Peter Pan jammies :) goes very well with the papers from the kit this month from LRS.

Oooooo GOSH I am wanting a soda sooooo bad, I had to share yhe very last one with Aidan tonight lol, and now I want another one, I am thinking about putting on all my warm clothes just to go get one from the apartment vending machine lol. I just may need a Pepsi to stay up and work tonight lol.

Okay well I better get back to the boys. TTYAS

Nikki

PS, yesterdays Anniversary was nice, I cooked an awesome meal and we all spent time together. and D and I cuddled, I always LOVED cuddling with him, we did it more so the first couple years we were married lol, so it was so nice to do it last night, we even both fell asleep cuddling on the couch LOL, we both woke up with stiff necks at 4am.

ahhhh okay really going, just had austin out here screaming about aidan spitting is milk in his eye, and they are fighting again :( Calgon take me awwwaaaayyyyyyyy........

Scrappin, well trying to anyways...

I just received my DT kit for Little Red Scrapbook. It's awesome, It is a kit that works around the new Chloe's Closet paper called "The back Nine". Soooo that means boyish colors :) YAY, which is perfect for all the pictures I just got back from www.winkflash.com of the boys. I get to play with some Black and White pictures as well as colored and what is cool is the background colors match the kit colors AWESOME! I have to admit I was a bit nervous of the Dice paper but, it looks so awesome in person, and Thanks to my friend Kristie I have an awesome theme, that will go perfect with the Dice paper, RIGHT ON! Here is what the kit looks like...



and then of course the awesome ADD ONS are amazing too and work so well with this kit!





I can't wait to get started, it is all sitting right in front of me and I have about two hours to work on it now (before D gets home and we celebrate our five year anniversary :D) I just picked out the pictures I will be using and now all that is left is to sketch out all my layouts and projects I will be making and then let the scrappin begin. I have been feeling IN the MOOD to scrap the past couple days, just have been so busy here at home. The plan is to get a bunch of scrappin done this week when I can :) Okay I better go get started on those sketches :)

Nikki

Five years ago today...

For The one I love on our Anniversary

I hope there is never
a need for you to wonder
how strong and deep
my feelings are for you.
We may have changed a little,
grown a lot,
but what's been constant
is how much I need you
in my life...

If my words
sometimes fail me,
always remember
what's in my heart,
You touch my soul...
and always will!

I love you!

Happy Annniversary Dustin!

Nikki

He never gives you more then you can handle

I need to be reminded of that often. I have had a pretty rotten week, It got so bad I started to doubt myself, my worth, everything. Not only has my marriage been a bit rocky latey but things in our life and household started to fall apart. It all started last saturday. My DH went to a concert and that went great, I was happy he was going, a bit jealous lol (the place looked awesome!) I wanted to go, but very happy fpr him none the less. To make a long story short, the car broken down, he lost his cell phone (we just ordered this new on last month because the old one broke, it was $75 added in payments on our current bill) and he could not get home until 4am. He also had to much to drink that night. You better believe I was a bit angry with him. First off remember 6 months ago me blogging about the transmission on our car needing to be rebuilt, well $2084.00 later it was fixed. My parents of course payed for it because there was no way we had that kinda money. My parents Christmas gift to us this year was buying all new tires on the car also. so that was another $400 on this car. well Monday D took the car back to the shop that did the trany work. (we had to use some of our rent money to pay to have the Explorer towed, so of course we needed to get help with some of our rent this month :(, it's just a huge mess and when things like this happen to people who just live and get by with each pay check it makes it hard). A couple days went by and then we got the phone call from the shop saying what was wrong with the trany was not part of our warrenty and it would cost $900 to fix (SHOCK!) I was so mad! Not only do we not have $900 but how was my husband going to get to work everyday which is about 25-30 miles away. They wanted him to come down to the shop (which is near D's work), but he had no way of getting there. We asked FIL if he could help, he said yes that he would take Dustin the next day, well that next day it snowed heavy all day and night long, so FIL could not take D and he had to call in sick to work with not having a car and all. By this point I was losing it, thinking GEEZZ will we ever get a break or see the light? I then get a phone call from the owner of the shop, he was very upset, angry, mad! he Said it looked like D had abused the car, with what was wrong with the trany, something with switching the gears the wrong way and shavings in something (I do not know car talk lol), I explain to the man that this is our only car/truck/suv (whatever you call it) that we have had alot of money go into it, it is the only way DH can get to work, I can not see him abusing it. The man did not want to hear it. He said it was $900 in parts and they were not going to do anything with it until D went down to see it himself. I was so paniced about D losing his job because surly he would have to call in sick again. Well I spent most ofr that day on the net and phone calling all the car rental places to see if we couple just rent a car, all of them wanted Major CC except one place called enterprise, they would rent the car for cash, but for 8 days they wanted $450.00 plus a $150 deposit, again we did not even have that amount of money until D gets paid. So D asked FIL if he could rent the car, at first he said yes, but then he said he just could not do it, if something happened it would be on him.

We went to bed that night not knowing what the next day would bring, the whole week had just been this huge mess, lots of emotions, very trying on us, you know through it we really bonded though, things have been not so good for us lately but we stood by eachother during this horrible week! the next day (Friday) FIL came to get D to take him to the shop, I sat here on pins and needles until D called. He said the owner of the shop was out of town but he spoke with one of the guys working on the car and he said that it would now only be $500 to fix. Still alot and sad it's not under the warrenty but $400 cheap is ALOT and we were grateful! D also said FIL let him use his truck the rest of the time we would not have the car! I was so glad! That meant no more worry about him maybe losing his job over this. That same night my MIL called from CA and she said she would help us pay for the car to be fixed. I was in tears! We are always in a funk this time of year, money is the tightest and it's just the hardest time of year for our family. I was at my lowest this week thinking everything was over and then all in one day I saw the light! It was amazing! We are so Grateful, and if that was not enough, Yesterday (Saturday) Smil and FIL came over, they brought us a Christmas Tree. I took one wiff of that tree and the amazing smell and it felt like Christmas! I thank the good lord above for our families! They have always been there for us when we needed them no matter what, yes it makes me feel so bad that at our age (26/27) that we need help from our folks still, but what an amazing family we have that they are "there" for us.

We are going to put up all the Christmas Decor today. The boys are very excited! Since the tree is in the living room this year (instead of in the dining room with the bay windows) we decided the tree colors will be red and gold and white, since the living room colors are burnt red and mocha. I am also handmaking a Christmas Card holder today, I will post pictures when I finish :)

Okay well I better get a shower in while I still can this morning lol. I am also waiting on a phone call from my Folks, right now they should be resting in my Aunt Rubi's house in Ireland :) My mom has been waiting all year for this, she did not do her normal 2-3 visits this year, her and my dad both wanted to go this time and for a whole month (my dad is only going half the month since he has work to do at home). They were so excited about this trip. Hope you all have a great Sunday! I will post pictures later of the tree and Christmas decor stuff :)

Nikki

Slowly but Surely

For those of you who have been following my blog for sometime, you know I have been working out and losing weight since March. Well I popped on the scale today and have lost another 10 pounds since last week. I have actually only worked out once this past week though, I did a power walk last week in the morning on the trail next door. I think this weight is actually off because of the added stress in my life lately. Anyways, last week I also moved the treadmill in to the dining room from our bedroom (neighbors down stairs pound on my floor if I do it at 10am back there, since you know they are up all night and sleep all day "eye roll". So now I can walk on MY treadmill and also switch off at the gym. I have now lost 53 pounds since March. I have about 30 more pounds to go to reach my pre pregancy weight of 117/120. I am hoping to be down to that size by next summer, that would be so awesome! :)

Time Machine

My Husband asked me today if I could go back to when we first met and started our lives together, knowing what is happening now and how our life has been, would I do it again. I thought about it, and here is my answer....

If I could go back to Jan, 2000, YES I would still go out with him, yes I would still have my beautiful kids. BUT YES I would do things differently. First I would make sure that I did not blow off nursing school, Even though I was Pregnant with Austin, had a full time job I would still try my hardest to get through nursing school. Second I would have never chose to stay home, DO NOT get me wrong, I LOVE being able to be home with my precious boys, but because of me staying home, not working, not bringing in money, it has a big part in what our lives are like now. So yes I do blame myself for some of why things are not going good in our marriage and family now. I have also become so dependent on my husband. I hardly have any contact with the outside world, no friends etc. This is my fault. So yes if I could go back into time knowing what I know now, I would have done things different. I think this would have made me stay the strong girl I was back then. Now I feel like I do not matter, I am weak and far from strong.

I am not going to go into detail here about our problems, but it is not looking good. He wants to have "His" life to do what he wants and I want what's best for my kids. I have put 150% in to this but it's not working.

Anyways I don't even know why I posted this :( I just really have no one to talk to and it feels good to let it out.

Nikki

DRAMA

More and MORE Drama with the neighbors downstairs. I have done everything I can to make everyone happy and it is not working :( I wish we had the money to buy a home, they are so cheap here and if we could save money we could, you can get a 3-4 bedroom, nice house here for 90-130 thousand. My parents live in CA, in a 3 bedroom the 740 thousand so YES WE CAN make it here, but we just need the money now. I went down today and got an APP from a place I am not going to mention yet, I don't wanna jinx myself lol. but I will post if I do get the job! It would be great! With me working and with D working we can start saving. We really wanna move to Bend, OR. (secretly I would love to go home to CA too :( I just miss it so much, my family and Friends). I have been talking to my best friend of about 17 years now on the phone and I just miss it there and her :(. Bend is a GORGEOUS place and would be great to raise our kids, plus it is affordable to.

Anyways I thought I would just pop in with a little update. Guess I could not stay away from my blog that long huh, funny when you let something go, you really do miss it. I love to journal. Okay going to go finish clean up the apartment and then maybe scrapbook :)

Nikki

apartment living :( AH!

I am back I will write a post after I get this out...

So I had problems with my neighbors down stairs a few days ago, I will post the thread I posted at LM when it was happening. I spoke with the manager and she is giving them two violations, one for noise late at night and the second for the crazy man not being on the lease but living there for more then 10 days. She said if they get one more canplaint that they will get their 30 notice. I was hoping with all that has happened that they would have been kicked out :( then yesterday while I was back here on the computer working on LM and GFTH stuff Dustin comes in and tells me that the crazy neighbors downstairs have friends that are looking at the apartment up stairs (shock) um okay yeah so now we can be sandwiched inbetween a BUNCH of crazies :( I am so upset about this. And I am just so said that I have to keep warning my boys to stop playing like normal because they might piss off the crazies down stairs :( I fill like this is prison instead of our place :( okay whine over I will go post a more positive post now....

Here is my thread I had at LM...

Repost-

It is now 1:16am and I have just been through heck and back! For those of your who have read my blog you will know what I am taking about from past vents. So we live in an apartment. On the second floor. We have had countless problems with the people who live below us, since they moved in. here is a quick recap, the very first night they moved in we were all awoken at 3am to the sound of a man and woman fighting, it got really bad to the point I thought the woman was badly beat up. I was so scared for her from what I heard. So the next day I called the manager and she said if it ever happened again to call the police, She also gave the woman a warning and told me that there should be NO man there , he is not on the lease (if you have a guest at your apartment who will be staying over for more than two weeks the than need to be added to the lease). Well I guess she knew right away it was us who called on her and so the crazyness begins. It started with them pounding here and there throughout the apartment, they would pound on their ceiling/our floor. One morning I was working out to my walk away the pounds dvd at 10am and she went crazy on the floor, pounding away and cursing. I called the manager right away and the manager came to both apartments (mine last) and said that the lady said there was no man there and that her and her kids were sick blah blah. Well first off I told the manager the lady could have come up here at said can you keep it down, we are not feeling good and trying to rest, But instead she acted like a child and pounded at her ceiling. She continued to pound off and on through the many days to come. a few weeks later I was in the kitchen putting dishes away and getting ready to bake a cake for the boys. Aidan was laying in the dining room with his blanket, looking like he was picking that spot for his nap. It was 4pm in the afternoon, he stomped his foot on the floor (while laying down) all of a sudden the woman/man started pounding away on our floor, aidan thought it was cool and pounded back, then them again, it went back and forth and I was getting POed! so I stomped back (jumping up and down three times, yes I know, I was now acting childish but I was so angry) I decided it was time to go down there for a talk with them as soon as dustin got home. Well minutes before dustin got home and some after they were in a huge fight down stairs, it sounded like the man was hitting her again. Well first I called the manager to let her know what was going on again. She told me that she wanted us to talk it out. So I went down I noticed her kids were in the car, but she was not there, I waited a while and then went to get the mail, when I was coming back she can out of her place so I went up to her and said, Hi, I think we need to talk. I got a dirty look and she was rude. We got into a heated argument about who is making more noise blah blah, then she tells me I am the childish one because I compain to the manager about her, I said she was because she pounds on the celing and is doing it to little kids who are either playing or just walking. It got REALLY REALLY loud and ugly, bad names back and forth etc. I screamed a few more things and went into the apartment. I was so mad! I could still hear her out side in her car screaming things, so I went back out and called her more names (YES I know we are both being childish now) she drove away, I went back inside. I sat back here thinking about posting what happened here or blogging it. I sat here looking at the screen and then I suddenly felt very bad, I have not behaved like that since highschool, and then I felt very low because I realized her kids were right there watching all of this. Soooo I went back downstairs and waited for her, aidan came with me and we played in the yard down there. When she came back she looked a little nervous. she just sat in her car. Finally she got out and I asked if we could start over. She smiled and looked happy about that. So we spoke out there for almost an hour. It was good, I told her I only called the first time because I was scared for her, because of the fights and she sounded like she was being hurt. She told me her BF looks mean but he really is not (I don't believe this because of many things that happened down there after this talk with her, and after tonight I know what he is like) He came back she introduced us and they went inside. I felt so much better after this. Our kids even played together at the park. Well about a month ago another one of these fights happened, and someone in our building called the police. The man had blood on him and when asked by the poice why? He said "I grabbed a picture of here off the shelf and broke it over my head" so see see what we are working with here.... anyways, I have no doubt in my mind that these people think it was us who called, soooo then the fauding begins again I got ugly looks from her, there was pounding etc. Well tonight, it is 10:00 Dustin gave both boys a bath, got them dressed and they were all sitting in the dark living room playing video games. I am sitting back here in my room at the computer working, not making much sound at all. the tv was on, but very low (I was watching how to lose a guy in 10 days) well I start hearing pounding back here, my heart jumped it scared the heck out of me. Aidan comes running back and says pounding, pounding. I get up to go into the living room to ask if dustin heard it, he says no. So I start walking back to my room and there it is again only 1,2,3,4,5,6 pounds very loud, shook the stuff on my shelves. I am getting angry again, I sit back down here and there it is again 1,2,3,4 pounds, so I get up and stomp back 3 times. more pounding from them. So I get my nikes on as fast as I can, I don't even lace them and head downstairs. I knock three times. No answer, so I knock three more times, still nothing. As I start to walk away the man opens the door, I ask if there is a problem and right away he blocks me from looking in and says that my kids are pounding, I said no sir, I am the only on in that room right now and I was sitting down working, there was no noise. He starts yelling and says my kids are loud and pounding, so I say again, no sir they are in the living room with their dad, far away from where you were pounding. he yells at me that he can hear them. I say sir if you have a problem them you should come up at tell me, please don't pound, he yells at me. I tell him even if they were being loud or stomping I can not stop them from walking in their own home or telling them they can not play right now, I said look your kids are awake and screaming right now (they were just having fun playing, I could hear them) I said so why are you making a big deal out of this when the same thing is happening in your home (as far as the kids being up and all) he tells me his are not stomping, I laugh and say um yeah well how do we know what it sounds like no one lives under you right? But I can tell you like I told your GF before that we can hear you guys, we can here the kids playing at 1am, you guys talking, the walls and floors and thin and this is going to happen sometimes. He gets mad and starts to close the door cursing at me, I then get mad and say that I will just tell the manager in the morning, he curses, and then I say back, I am sure she will be pleased to here that you have been staying here for the past two weeks when you have been told before that that is against the rules. Door closes I head back upstairs. 20 minutes later, Dustin is in bed and the boys are sitting with me getting ready for bed and watching cartoons. There is a knock at the door. It's the police. I let all three in. They say they got a call that someone was hurting their kids and that it was our apartment. I roll my eyes and say are you sure it was not down stairs. he says no it was here. They say they got a call that a man was hitting his kids up here. (the boys are both sitting with me on the couch happy as can be, excited to see police (they love police shows and toys and games) I tell them that Dustin was sleeping has been for a while now. They asked when he came home, I said a couple hours ago, they asked how long he was sleeping, I said about 30 minutes. they said they got the call 15 minutes ago. They asked if there was fighting going on in the building and I told them everything about what happened tonight with the people downstairs plus everything from before. said not only have I complained but so have others and if they wanted to see for them selves they could call the manager. They were very friendly to the boys, who were running around looking at the police men, they said aidan looked like he could be a football player etc. lol They said they were so sorry they had to come out that is was obviously just a case of fauding neighbors. they said that they were going to go down stairs to see if they could get thinsg better between all of us. everything calmed down, the police finally left and everyone in our apartment were alseep by 11:00pm. I called the office and left a message for the manager explaining what happened tonight and that I wanted to speak with her in the morning. So I am sitting back here, everything is off except the muted tv in the living room were austin fell asleep and my computer which is muted to since everyone was sleeping. I was shrinking photos in photoshop, at 11:30 I start hearing some crazy pounding on our floor/their ceiling in the living room where my son is sleeping. It was very crazy. then I hear doors slamming downstairs and the people going in and out of their apartment back and forth to the garbage and then more pounding in my living room. They had to have been tossing something hard and heavy against the ceiling, this woke austin up and was scaring the heck out of me! So first I call the office to get the noise on tape so the manager can hear it herself and know that I am not making this stuff up. Then I am on the phone with the police. I tell the lady who answered that I am not sure if this was the right number to call (911) because it's a complaint on neighbors not really an ER, she says she can take it, so I explain what was going on and then there is loud pounding at my front door, and the man is scream through my door, says his name and a ton of curse words. I am freaking out now, my whole family is asleep and this crazy guy downstairs is at my door screaming and knocking, the 911 lady tells me don not open the door BUT go ask what they want so I get there and do what she says, the man tells me to shut the f up that we are all making to much noise. I tell him that everyone in our house is sleeping, there is no noise. He tells me to open my door I say no, mean while the 911 lady can hear everything he says, then the lady from downstairs (I think she is seriously on drugs!) tells me to open the f'in door "B word". I tell them that I am on the phone now to the police and they run down stairs. The lady on the phone says there should be police there now and hangs up. So they go down stairs to talk, within a minute they are back up here, I let them in, it's three again, two of them that were here earlier. they say that they were pounding because they said we have music going on loud up here, and the police then say they could hear it too, that it was very loud, I say sir my family all went to bed right after you guys left earlier (it's 12:00am now) they could see that from austin on the couch and one of them took a peek in my room to see aidan and d asleep and my computer on (I told them I was up still doing work, had a couple last minute things to do for work and then was going to bed) they sent one of the officers down stairs who then came right up and said he could still hear the loud music from down there but it was obvious that it was not coming from our apartment. So they opened the balcony and looked out thinking it could be apartments behind us or the neighbors on the therside of them next door (on their left or right downstairs). They again said they were so sorry about all of this and that they would handle it with the people downstairs. I heard them tell the people downstairs that the noise was not coming from us that everyone WAS in deed alseep in out apartment that they saw for themselves, and that it was someone in one of the other apartments, I could hear the lady laughing. they more words I could not make out and then the police left. I have countinued to hear them yell and bang thinsg downstairs. I am just sitting here freaked out. I left yet a third and final message to the manager letting her know what just happened and that the neighbors where up here knocking and I am sure everyone in our building could hear what happened. I have no clue what will happened tomorrow, but I am sure the manager is not going to be to pleased with any of us at this point. I honestly tried to make thinsg better by going down and trying to work on this like the manager asked me to, but it did not work! I can say I HATE apartment life! This is so sad, that we have to deal with this. This never happened with the nice woman and son who use to live down there the first year and a half we lived here. We also have MIL as a witness to this wackyness. While she was here, the lady downstairs just lets here young kids, 3 and 6 go out to the park by themselfs everyday, well she watches two other little girls 2 and 3 and they were all outside hanging of the stairs and in their panties, running up and down the carport, no one watching them. We were all leaving and noticed no one was out watching them, so we (the boys me and mil) watched and waited in the car as dustin asked the little girls to go back inside their house with their mom he then went to the door and knocked, it opened but the mother was no where to be seen, so they little girls went in and dustin closed the door. We all left, I of course forgot some pants I had to return (we were going to the mall) so we turned around and sure enough within 5 minutes the little girls were back outside in their underwear alone! My MIL witnessed this, so this is just more proof. I really hope something will be done this time. Not only was I scare tonight but I was freaked out for my family. If you made it this far, thank you so much for letting me vent. I could not call anyone because it's late so I thought I would vent here. Thanks to those of your for listening to me and please if you have any advice on this, if you have been through stuff like this with neighbors I would love some advice on what you did! Thanks ladies! I am now off to bed, I am so tired, but still so scared!

Break from bloggin

I am going to be takin a break from bloggin, not sure if it will be a long one, or if I will be bloggin again next week. To much is going on around here, I am in a funky mood and I just don't have it in me to blog right now. Not that anyone even really reads what I have to say anyways...

Far well blog, until we meet again...

Nikki

Bad blogger... Bad blogger, Chatterbox addict yikes

I am sorry to those who like to read my blog, sorry I have not updated in a while, it's been a busy couple of weeks! I am back though :) Nothing to new going on, I started back at the gym again, I am hoping it sticks longer this time LOL. We had a great Halloween weekend and it was so wonderful having my MIL here, I was so sad and depressed when she left :( I really miss her and my family in CA. We took the boys to the park, pumpkin patch, shopping, we baked goodies, it was just a great visit. I am sad that I did not get in to many pictures. I was really sick on Sunday, the kinda sick where you can't hold anything down and you have to stay in bed all day. I was so thankful my MIL was here, I have no idea how I would have done it without her!

I have been a busy girl this week, lots of DT stuff to do and I also have the Lifetime moments charity auction to work on this week. We just got it up today, and it is doing great so far! So many talented people donated their awesome work for the cause (to help kids in need at Christmas).

I just got my cards ideabook/magazine back today, I got my two cards, two copies of the book and an awesome goodie box! I got a SEI kit pack and OMGOSH I got a few sheets of one of the new CBX lines, of course not enough to fill the need but I got a few lol, I totally need more! and can not wait to get my hands on more of this line and the other new line. I have a BAD BAD BAD Chatterbox addiction, I mean it's nuts! I have been...well....... collecting the paper for a few years now, my collection is now over 5 inches tall! I am serious! This is my all time favorite pattern paper line! Just to show you what a nut I am I took a couple pictures of it lol (blush) SEE....





I told you and you know what, I NEED MORE! I am serious! Everytime I have a little extra change I get a couple sheets here and there. It is a sickness, a good, wonderful, amazingly awesome sickness lol and OMGOSH The smell! My chatterbox paper smells sooooooooo good! (okay now I just sound like a crazy person lol) well what can I say, I am an ADDICT!

Nikki

I finished my halloween projects :)

I finally finished most of my halloween projects, I still have to finish the mini album I am working on but this is what I have done so far. I am taking the rest of the day off from scrapbooking to spend time with the boys :) Here is what I did get done using the Wendi Speciale Designs OCTOBER KIT. I am pretty happy with what I made :) SUPER FUN kit!







Here's a card



Have a great day :)

Nikki

Awesome CD alert

So I am finally getting a chance to sit here and finish up my halloween mini album that is late for WSD :( I am so sorry I am late, it has just been a hectic couple weeks. Dustin is off of work today and I am on a roll and working. Anyways so here I sit suppose to be in a Halloween kinda mood, but there is nothing SPOOKY about what I am listening to while I work LOL. If you don't have the new Mariah Carey CD then come on girls (and guys lol) Go get that CD (The Emancipation of MiMi). For those of you who are my close friends you ALL know what Mariah means to me. LOL I have been a Mariah Fan since I was 11 years old. I have every CD she has ever made along with all the inports (CD's and songs never released here in the US) and of course my famous Mariah VHS movies (lol I should probably get them on DVD now lol). LOL in highschool I was often called Mariah because of my long very curley hair (lol thanks Monica and the girls ;)

Well I have the CD in and am rocking today, may even bust out my older MC CD's, I LOVE Mariah's remake of "The Beautiful ones" (by Prince, another one of my favorites). Okay well I better get back to work and stop messing around, I will be back later :)



Nikki

Okay so it did get better :)

Okay Drama queen is back lol. Boy was it rough this morning, however it did start to get better, Aidan took a nap and that gave me time to work more on my mini album for the DT, it was to late though because the dt gallery was added shortly after and I could not upload because we went and did things for my birthday. So again, I suck because of that, but you know what, it is my birthday and I was enjoying time with my family! This whole weekend away was wonderful to, I was just telling my mother tonight that we all have had more fn this past weekend then we have together all year! It was just so awesome! LOL none of us wanted to leave.

So around 4pm today I hear a knock at the door, then Austin comes back here and tells me someone is knocking, so I stop working and head for the door, I peek out the peep hole and see a pretty blond lady standing there with something in her hands, when I open the door she asks if I am Nikki, I say yes and she hands me this...



The card said they were from my MIL. How sweet is she! I called her and thanked her :) I decided not to let the day get to me and just relax so I ran a hot bubble bath and soaked for an hour, then D got home and walked into the bathroom with these...



24 red long roses. He said that he went to the flower place that Costco gets them from just to make sure he got the red ones. How sweet huh and I think it makes up for the 30 joke (eye roll) he said he owes me 27 spanks too (shock) LOL. We got ready to go out and he took me and the boys to Chilis. mmmmmm it was so good! the four of us split a chocolate shake with chocolate sprinkles (Austin drank most of it lol) I got the steak fajitas, LOVE those, Dustin got the ribs and fries, austin got pizza and Aidan got a corn dog and fries. The boys did pretty good minus Aidan pouring sugar on half his food, and Austin is strange when it comes to pizza, he likes to add ketchup to it (yuck! lol). After that we went to look at Bunk bed prices, we want to get the boys beds soon so we shopped around looking at the different prices. Then we went to Mervyens, EVERYTHING was on sale, so I decided for the first time in 5 years to spend the birthday money my folks give me for my birthday every year ($100) on clothes for myself, BOY was that hard! I wanted to spend it on the boys and clothes for them to lol. I sure did make out to! The awesome L.E.I sophia hiphugger jeans I love so much were on sale and marked down from $44 to $28, so I got two pairs in black lol. I also got 6 shirts, 3 T shirts all only $4 (love these for the gym or hanging out around the house (I got pink, white and light grey), then I got an awesome limeish green colored shirt with sparkles down the V necked area, a cotton black "E" (ellemenno) long sleeved lounge shirt, and a Cami tank that feels so nice, for when D and I go out downtown or on a date somewhere (I wear these with a buttoned overshirt unbuttoned though) oooooo and I also got a new Black hoodie YAY. All of this for a little over $100. I still have some money left over to (about $130 for bday money) so I may have to go back and get a couple more things from that awesome sale!

D also got himself a couple pairs of jeans and 3 shirts for work, the total for all our purchase was $178.00 We saved $186.93 from the sale, CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT? Awesome! We NEVER get o do this because we never have the money to spend on ourselves to get clothes, but we saved for D to get some new work clothes and with my B-day money we made out! I am just so thrilled to have my jeans :)



Okay well I better get to bed it is late and everyone is finally asleep YAY lol. oh before I go I just wanted to say Thanks to all who posted on the MB's wishing me a happy birthday! That was so very sweet of you all and it sure did make my day today! I am so blessed to have so many wonderful people in my life and as my friends! Thank you all! I love ya guys! :)

Nikki

Should have gone back to bed!

I hate this day! Every year I should just stay in bed but nope I get up and have to live through this horrible day! Okay yes I know you are thinking OH NO there is the drama queen but seriously if you went through this horrible day I am having you would be UPSET to!

Lets see, I was woken up at 6am by Aidan who stuck a ahem "dirty" diaper in my face and announced he went poopoo, GREAT! So I get up get him fixed with a new diaper and put him back to bed. I had the heater on last night because it was cold and and I am trying to get rid of this cold I have had for a week, someone (ahem "D") turned it off last night then took all the covers on our bed for himself so here I sat freezing and my throat is killing me again, you know that scratchy feeling and you cough but it does not help, aftering doing this 20 times you now feel worse but also gained a headache, that is me today. So I fall back to sleep. Aidan came in at 9am, I am still tired, I wake Dustin up to tell him his alarm is going off and ask if he could get up with Aidan and let me sleep in a little longer that I am not feeling good, so he gets up, uses the bathroom, goes to get aidan a cup of milk comes back to our room mad, I ask why? he says Aidan took the milk out of the fridge a while ago and now it's warm so it's ruined. He poors it all out. Then he climbs into bed and goes back to sleep. So I have to get up to be with Aidan. When D finally gets up and gets ready for the day, he is kinda in a bad mood today and it shows in his tone and his comments. I think to myself great here we go, my birthday curse. Never got a Happy birthday he just runs to work.

One thing after another has happened this morning, Austin and Aidan keep fighting, all morning long, I am rushing to finish my mini album for a DT project that was due yesterday but I was out of town visiting my Grandma and could not finish, I pmed the DT and let them know I would not be able to have these in until later today last friday but did not get an answer, but did get an email this morning addressed to the group that the DT stuff is going up today, so now I am rushing to finish, yes I know my fault I am a huge disappointment to everyone, I SUCK, I know! I should have just taken this stuff with me to work on in the hotel, but nope did not even cross my little brain!, so inbetween trying to finish this project and getting everything scanned in before the DT stuff is put up (crossing fingers) I have had to deal with so much SHIT! yes I am cursing now because I am very angry! I have had to stop the boys from fighting, I had to clean up the fridge, kitchen floor and CARPET because Aidan took the mustard, ketchup, and Mayo out of the fridge and decided to make art on everything (I just carpet cleaned two days ago). I have had to fish Aidan out of my bathroom maybe 10 times already, a roll of toilet paper is gone, my yummy almond cherry soap that Dustin's brother and wife gave me last year is all gone (brand new bottle I have only used it a couple times), there is sopa all over the mirrors the kitty litter and food is all over the floor and mixed together (where was I while this was happening? in the kitchen cleaning up that mess). I found tacos Dustin had leftover along with some leftover cheese cake smooshed into the carpet, I will be carpet cleaning soon. Let see, my oldest thought it would be nice (he was being sweet) to scoop out the kitty litter earlier and that caused the toliet to flood, why? Because we just switched to scoop away and you are not suppose to flush it because it hardens when wet so you can scoop away pee, so it got all hard and clogged the toliet , it took me 8 flushes and so hard plunger work to get it normal again, hoping it does not hurt the toliet and piles later on though. My youngest has had more poop diapers today then he has had all week YUCK! We will NOT talk about the HUGE mess in the living room, it looks horrible and I can't clean it now because I really need to finish this project.

Now here is the kicker the thing that brought me over the edge and it is only 1PM, and the reason I am sitting here venting now, I have noone to talk to this is why I am venting here, I can not wait to see the way the rest of the day goes =( My husband calls me 5 minutes ago to say he is sorry for forgetting it was my birthday and wishes me a happy birthday, I say it's okay, I am happy he remembers now (okay sorry just had to go out and stop more fighting between the boys) I am in the middle of saying something and he hangs up on me, I think hmmm okay. So 5 minutes later he calls back, says he hung up because his boss needed to talk to him (strange it's D's break). So he then says that he called his dad a while ago and asked if him and SMIL could watch the boys for an hour so we could go out to dinner, he says FIL sounded upset and did not want to do it, so he said for D to call SMIL and see if she would be okay with it, D did not do this yet, I told D to forget it that, that right there was obvious that it was not going to happen, I said we can just take the boys with us, D said no. Then it gets silent again and then the shittyness starts, he says "SO HOW'S IT FEEL TO BE 30" My jaw dropped and the tears came, not that I mind turning 30, but HELLO, I am only 27 today, what the hell! I tell him I have to go and he say alright fine and hangs up. I am now so tired of all of this and just start crying. a couple minutes later I call back, he answers the phone saying "hows the birthday girl" (shitty tone) and I (crying) say forget today is anything, we will just go on like any other day, no dinner, nothing, you can go out like you wanted to with your friends or brother and I will just stay home and watch the boys. he says "what me saying you are 30 means nothing, get over it" I say it was hurtful because I am only 27 and you know that, you said it to be shitty! and YOU are only a year younger, how would you like it if I was putting you down on your birthday?

I don't know again maybe I am just being a drama queen, but it has been a shitty day, I can't wait for it to be over! Right now the only thing I want for my birthday is to just lay in bed and not have to deal with the fighting, the diapers, the mommy can I have, Mommy he did this, rude comments, I just want to lay here, maybe read a book, sleep, I don't know, I just want to be alone! Okay Vent over for now!

Nikki